October 6th 2010

Derek had to work late so me and the kids spent some fun time together:

Watching Backyardagains with her chocolate milk.

Coloring!! She could sit here for hours and hours and color. It is her favorite thing to do!

London thought Elmo needed some Kix cereal.

Walking in mommys shoes. She loves to do this. It is funny to watch her in my high heels. She clomps around the kitchen :)

Here is my little explorer. He found the blinds behind the curtains in Londons room. I could not drag him away from them. He also has to pull himself up to everything. He wants to walk so bad.

October 5th 2010

After work today I went home and played with London and Teagan. Then we went to Kohls to get some fall decor because we dont have any! We decided to eat and In-n-out burger while we were there. It is pretty good. The best burger I have eaten. I dont really like hambergers because of the texture but their burgers are yummy. Then I went to get my temple recommend renewed. It is my goal to start going to the temple as much as I can. After I got home from that me and London read books while Derek put Teagan to sleep. I love spending time with the kids. Having London sit on my lap and read books with me is one of my favorite moments. I love cuddling with my baby girl!!

October 4th 2010

Tonight when I got home we put the kids in the bath tub. London loves to take a bath but we bought a new bubble machine that pumps a million bubbles into the tub and it makes a humming noise...well...she HATES it. I think it is the noise that she hates so much. She did not want to take a bath at all; she cried and cried. Well because she was crying it made brother cry. So we hurried and bathed them so they could get out. After we got all ready we went to Trolley Square to eat at the Spaghetti Factory for Dana's birthday. Teagan ate so much food he spit up all over the place and London whined most of the time becuase we wanted her to eat and she wanted to color. (She is going to be an artist, she LOVES to color). After dinner we went to Dana and Gary's house to watch Dana open presents. London loved playing with their puppy Griff. She would chase him around with Sadie. Then she had to take turns sitting on everyones lap. Then it was time to go nigh night. It was a fun day!

October 3rd 2010

Today was another wonderful day of confrence. Me and Derek actually got to watch quite a bit because they kids wanted to play in their rooms in the ball pit. After confrence was over we went to Dana's sisters house for dinner and cake. It is Dana's birthday on Monday so we decided to celebrate with her family Sunday night. Happy Birthday Dana!!

October 2nd 2010

This morning I turned up the television full blast so that I could attempt to listen to confrence. The kids had another thought....lets watch Elmo, play with every toy possible, climb in the toy box and throw the toys around the room and pull out all the flashcards to review with mom. So my attempt to watch confrence was not so great. Then I finally got the kids to sleep, ate some lunch and decided to relax a bit in bed before the second session...oops! I fell asleep and woke up to hear Ukdorf (not sure how to spell that) speak. It was an awesome talk though. Guess I will have to listen to it on the computer.

Saturday night Derek went with the men in the family to the Priesthood session and while they were gone the girls went to dinner to the CPK. It was a lot of fun but hard with two kids. London kept spilling chocolate milk on her and Teagan thought he needed to eat my pizza and freaked out when I would not let him. Overall it was a great day! Even though some times it seems like choas I love every minute of it. My kids have changed my life for the better and I would never change that! They are my everything. They make me smile and laugh. They make me want to wake up each day. Love you guys!!!!

October 1st 2010

So I took Teagan to his one year doctor appointment this morning and he is 19 pounds and like 8 ounces. He is in the zero percentile for his length; the 7th percentile for his weight and the 91st percentile for his head. So...I have a short slightly fat boy with a huge head :) I love my little man. He is healthy and ready to start on some milk. He is a big boy now! I cant believe my baby is so grown up. When we got home he wanted to go to sleep because of his shots so he went nigh night and me and London played, watched elmo and ate macaroni and cheese (the only thing she will eat) oh and she wanted to mix in honey kix (YUCK!!). She is so funny.

September 28th 2010

Okay so posting everyday was interupted by a sick family. So basically I have done nothing but take care of a sick hushand and sick kids. Sounds fun huh!! Not so much....

September 27th 2010

One year ago today was a huge day in my life. It was 3am and I woke up with extreme pain. (mind you I was already in the hospital for the past 6 weeks on bed rest). So I called the nurses and let them know. They came down and hooked me up to a baby monitor to see how my baby was doing. They noticed that I was in labor so they gave me two rounds of meds to stop it and 2 shots to stop it. After that did not work and my contractions were super close they rushed me to Labor and delivery. LItterally I was squeezing the arm off of the nurse because the pain was so intense. They grabbed the machine and my bed and ran down the hall. Luckily it was so early in the morning no one was in the hall because we would have taken them out. I called Eric and Derek. As soon as Eric got my call he was to call the phone tree and get everyone to the hospital and notified that I was having the baby. Derek drove so fast he got there in record time. He said that he had a feeling something was going to happen that night so he went home from work and just watched tv until he got my call. My mother also said she had laid her clothes out perfectly with socks and everything (which she never does) and laid in bed without falling asleep. They all knew something was going to happen. Well they got to the hospital and we waited for the doctors instuctions. The doctor told the nurse to go ahead and check me (this was the first time they had ever checked me because if they did it could cause labor if I wasnt already in labor) well needless to say I was a 10 and she felt the babys head. They said you have 1 second to tell us if you want the epidural, well i decided not to becuase I thought this cant be to bad if the head is already there. So they started to wheel me into the operating room. I wanted mom and Heather to be there but they said I could only have one person so I chose Heather because I knew she would never be able to have a baby and wanted her to experience it. Before they got me in the room I started screaming for Derek (I dont konw why) but I needed him so bad at that momment. So they went and got him. I told him that I could not do this and I was scared. He said its going to be great and that I would be fine. Then they made him leave because they had to get me in the room. Well as soon as they got me in there everyone was running around like crazy, they had the NICU staff in the other room waiting for the baby to be born. My doctor told me to tell her when I was having a contraction; i was suppossed to know this because I was having natural child birth...little did they remember I had several things telling my body not to be in labor (pills and shots galore) so  I could not tell when I was suppossed to push. The doctor then told me when to push and holy cow was that painful. I did not think I could do it. It felt like I was pushing forever and then there he was Tiny and amazing. Just thinking about him makes me want to cry. No noise from him, he was just laying there, the doctor hurried and cut his cord and they rushed him away to the NICU nurses standing by. Well my sack was in shreds again so they had to try to get that taken care of and that sucked. Getting a D and C with no pain killers, the doctor said you have to have an epideral because this is really bad. So even though I had natural child birth I ended up with an epidural anyways. When the anestetiologst gave me the epidural it sent shocks down my left leg. It was not fun. Well everything was over and they wheeled me and my mom into see Teagan. He was wide awake and on the ventilator. He looked so amazing that is when I knew that he had changed my life in a way that no one else could. He was my little man that would get me through everything that I needed to, he was the one that could survive anything and would prove to me that I can to. I was so happy to see that Hevenly Father blessed me with yet another miracle. Teagan I love you and have since I found out that you were joining our little family. You are and always will be my main man, my little guy, my son. I love you. Happy Birthday!!!!

September 26th 2010

Today was not the best day for me. I went to church alone with Teagan and he had diareah and puked all over me so I stayed just long enough to take the sacrament then we left. When I got home I was not feeling great so me and Teagan took a nap. When I got up we went and cut Janas hair. She is growing it out and she had a mullet going on so we had to fix that. Hope you like it Jana :) Then we stayed to eat dinner. We chatted a bit and I just kinda felt like crap. So we went home. Then Derek started feeling really sick so he went to sleep while I hung out with the kids. Not a great day! Lets hope it gets better.

September 25th 2010

Today I went with my mom, sister, and Amy Rudolph to the "What a women wants" expo. We got there at 9 and stayed until 2. There were so many booths filled with super cute and fun things. I bought some cute stuff (shirt, hot tools holder, amazing diaper bag). It was a blast!! Mom had to get back for the womens broadcast for church so they had to hurry home so we could not do lunch. I really miss being so close to my family. I love you guys!! Derek stayed home with Teagan and mowed the lawn and started to put the tramp together. I went shopping and bought some pants to fit my new body (the one I am embracing until I loose 20 pounds). They were super cheap and not cute so I hope it motivates me to loose the weight even faster. I have a plan so we will see if it works. If so I will tell everyone my litte secret :)

September 24th 2010

Today was a fun day. Derek and I both had the day off so we ran some errands, played with the kids, watched TV, and best of all we went to the Training Table for dinner and the circus! We were in the third row. London and Teagan were inthralled by all the lights and action. They got a little restless because they were both really tired. It was a lot of fun!!

September 23rd 2010

Happy Birthday Pete!! Today was Petes birthday so we went to dinner at Texas Roadhouse and then went back to Nana and Papas to open presents. It was a fun day!

September 22nd 2010

Last night we went to Nana and Papas house and ate pancakes for dinner. Then me and Jana went shopping for Papas birthday. Derek and the kids played with Sadie and had a blast. London is still scared of Brents cast. She goes and hides in the corner when she sees him and then when he leaves the room she yells bye bye. Then on the way home we told London she could either go home and go to sleep or take a bath and her eyes lit up and she kept yelling bath. She loves bath time. She will lay down and pretend to swim. She loves to dump water on Teagans head. They used to love splashing each other but me and Derek stopped that because we were soaking at the end of the bath as well. London loves to put lotion on (that is the only way she will get out of the bath). Teagan is starting to be so active it is hard to dress him and get him ready for bed. He is so funny. He gets easily distracted. Then after bath is was off to bed. London is an angel when it is bed time. She has her chocolate milk and sometimes a cookie (vanilla wafer) then I lay her on her bed with minnie (mimi) and her blanket, tuck her in and say "time for kisses" when I say that she goes MMMWHA! and I give her a big mommy kiss. Then turn off the light and say nigh night. She goes to sleep no issues! We are so lucky that she doesnt fight it. Teagan is good as well. He will eat his entire bowl of rice ceareal and baby food and then an 8 ounce bottle all snuggled up in a blanket (he still likes to be swaddled for bedtime), he will fall asleep while drinking and then we just put him in the crib. But if we dont feed him enough he will wake up and let us know. He is a big boy and needs a lot of food. I love his little rolls.

September 21st 2010

So I went and saw Easy A last night. It was so funny and sad all at the same time. It made me realize that I need to stand up for and appreciate who I am and not worry what people think about me. I am who I am.

September 20th 2010

When I got home from work my amazing husband was cleaning out the garage. Since we moved in we have only been able to park one car in the driveway but our goal was to park both cars before the weather got cold. He did an amazing job. It looks so great! We are able to fit both cars!! YEAH!!! It was a night of cleaning and playing with the kids. London loves to run and jump in the ball pit that Teagan got for his birthday. She thinks it is hilarious and laughs so hard. I love my little girl. Teagan is still army crawling because he knows that gets him around faster then crawling. Also he has 3 teeth on top and 2 on bottom with at least 2 more coming through on top. His teeth are popping in like crazy.

The what IF'S...

If I had never became a mother...


I wouldn't have to wonder "Is that chocolate or is that poop?"



If I had never became a mother...

I would never have to use the bathroom or shower with the door open



If I had never became a mother...

I wouldn't step on legos with every step, causing me to scream out in pain



If I had never became a mother...

I wouldn't have gained this spare tire that I carry around the space where my tummy used to be.



If I had never became a mother...

I wouldn't have to buy Handi Snacks and Goldfish crackers by the grouse



If I had never became a mother...

I wouldn't have had the pleasure of pulling the back on someones pants open to see if they pooped.



If I had never became a mother...

I wouldn't have to buy an entire new wardrobe for them while I, myself, make do with one good pair of jeans and one cardigan.



If I had never became a mother...

I wouldn't have sat up until the wee hours of the morning lulling a crying baby to sleep when all I wanted to do was cry myself.



If I had never became a mother...

I would never have eaten so many cold meals in my life.



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If I had never became a mother...

I wouldn't get to see young minds grow and discover the beauty of the earth



If I had never became a mother...

I wouldn't have two sweet little warm bodies who find no greater joy than crawling into bed with their Mama for a good morning snuggle.



If I had never became a mother...

I would never had had the chance to nourish another human being with my own



If I had never became a mother...

I would never know how proud I could feel when someone does something that seems so small.



If I had never became a mother...

I never would have had another beating heart lay so close to my very own, literally.

September 19th 2010

Tonight we ate dinner at nana and papa's house. We had cupcakes for dessert and this what happened:

Needless to say London loved it! She got so mad when I tried to halp her eat it.

September 18th 2010

Today we celebreated Teagans first birthday!!! We had a barnyard theme (pics to come). It was a lot of fun. Tons of family came to our house and we had the party in the back yard. Teagan ate 3 full cupcakes WOW!! He dove right in without hesitation. Of course he is not used to the sugar overload so he got a little spitty that evening. He got tons and tons of awesome gifts! (thanks again to our amazing families). We are so thankful to have Teagan here and healthy. We love you big guy!

September 17th 2010

So this morning me and the kids went to my moms house so I could cut hair. When we pulled into the driveway London started screaming because she was so excited to be there. She was running around and playing all day. She loved playing with all the toys and remembering where everything was.

We left Roy and headed to the Utah State Fair! WOW that was a blast. The kids rode on the ponies (pics to come), London rode on a bunch of rides and loved them . I thought she would be scared but she screamed and laughed really hard. My little angel is not scared of anything. We ate tons of food (including London, she ate more then ever). We shopped and just had a blast. We got pictures with seals. I cant beleive how much fun it was.

September 16th 2010

 London decided to play mommy today! She walked around the kitchen with one of my high heels on. It was so cute. It made a clunking noise throughout the entire kitchen. It was so cute. Then Teagan decided to help dad put the laundry away. They also went for a ride around the house in a plastic container. SO CUTE!!!

September 15th 2010

So the minute I got home last night we left to run errands. We first went to Toys R Us to finish buying Teagan his birthday presents. We then went to Hires for dinner. London loved the booster seat, as soon as dinner was over and we were getting ready to leave she carried the booster seat to the reigster and sat on it in line to pay. It was so stinking cute. She was mad that we had to leave it at the restraunt. She of course at Ranch dressing with a fry or two. That girl doesnt eat. Teagan on the other hand had eaten before we left the house but whined the entire time we ate because he felt that he needed some. So we gave him some fries and he devoured them. Then it was off to Walmart. Holy cow two carts full of stuff for the party (and I still forgot some things). We got home and put the kids to bed then relaxed for a bit and then off to bed.

September 14th 2010

Tuesdays are always hard for me. London goes with Mark for a few hours. I try to prepare her and let her know that she is going with him but no fail when she sees his car she cries so hard. It breaks me and Dereks heart. We feel helpless and dont know what to do. She was gripping on my shirt so tight Derek could not take her for the exchange. My heart aches to see my baby like that.

Well after that terrible moment my sweet friends took me to see The Switch. It was one of the best movies. I laughed and cried. I love movies that can take your emotions up and down and grab your attention. On my way home from the movie I broke down and cried so hard. I dont usually have time to myself and at that moment it hit me how bad I feel for my London. I just hope and pray that she will be a stronger girl from all of this and that she will go towards the Lord for help and comfort.

Oh yeah, while I was gone my AMAZING husband had done the laundry, played with Teagan, hung pictures, cleaned the entire basement, sorted through boxes, got London back and comforted her and made sure she had her chocolate milk. Have I said that Derek is the most amazing dad to the babies ever!!!

I am posting daily; I promise

My new goal is to post daily (minus weekends) even if I dont get pictures.

September 13th 2010
When I got home from work we ate some yummy food (well everyone ate but London, all she ate was the ketchup that she had to dip her fries in). She is so funny. She hardly eats and that is why she is so skinny. She loves to snack on treats though. Teagan on the other hand is already eating us out of house and home. He is such a pig. We love it!! Then we watched Elmo, took baths, drank chocolate milk and went to sleep. London loves to have her chocolate milk before bed. She cant go to sleep without it.

FUN

I hope you enjoy the pictures. We had so much fun this past summer. The pictures are just the pics from May. I need to get a computer where I can update my blog from my camera so that you dont have to wait to see how much fun we have :) London discovered the side stairs in the pictures but could not figure out how to get back down so I had to help her down each time she climbed up. There are pictures of Derek and Dad's birthday. Sweet Derek turned 30 (old man) and yes I kept dating him. I know that I said I was going to dump him on May 1st at 9:30pm because I did not want to date an old man, but I decided that I kinda loved the guy so I kept dating him. Since May we have done tons of stuff. Me, London, Teagan, Heather, Jayden and Mom went on dates every Friday during the summer to fun destinations. We had a blast all summer long spending quality time with each other. I will post more pics as Derek burns them to CD.

And here they are.....FINALLY!!

Forever....

So it has been forever since I posted anything on my blog. I am going to be better about it i promise. Life has been great and crazy at the same time. Married life is so much fun. We are so busy with Dereks new job, a new house, and crazy active kids. I will admit being a newleywed with kids is kinda hard but i could not have chosen a better partner to do it with. Derek makes my world go round. He is my true soul mate, my eternal companion and best friend. The kids are doing great. We have been having fun dates all summer with Heather and Jayden. I will post pics as soon as I get them back. Derek went to print them but there was 3000 pics...way to expensive so we are going to get them on a disk. Life is great!!!

Wedding!!

Hey everyone. If you have not already posted your address on Facebook for an invite to the wedding please email me your info.
Kwhitehead81@hotmail.com

Vacation

We had the best vacation ever!! I will post pictures when I figure out how to use the new camera Derek bought me. Oh yeah.....I GOT ENGAGED!!! Derek and I will be married June 19th. I am so excited to be married to such an amazing man. You that know him know that he is the best and most loving person ever. He makes me laugh, smile, and loves me for me. I love you Derek!!!

YEAH ITS OVER!!

Well mostly...the papers are signed by the judge!! I can now start my life with my amazing kids. I cant wait for what the rest of my life has in store for me. I know it will be great because I am blessed with amazing people all around me!!!!!!!

Picture Tag

Picture Tag:


Here are the rules:

1. Open your 1st Photo folder.

2. Scroll to the 10th photo.

3. Post the photo and the story behind it.

4. Tag 5 or more people.

For Memorial Day 2009 Heather, Jayden, Mom, Me, and London went to the Ogden Cemetery to see a wall with all the veterns names on it. (Sorry I dont remember what the wall name was) I was pregnant with Teagan (look at the belly). We had so much fun. This was one of Londons outings since winter and the sick season was finally over. I love to be with my sister and mom.

I tag:

Heather and Eric

Christina Hymas

Shoot EVERYONE!! I think these are fun.

Elton John and Billy Joel concert

On February 19th we went to the Elton John and Billy Joel concert. We were on the 15th row, it was AMAZING! They are fabulous preformers. My favorite part was watching how happy Derek was. I have never seen him so happy. Pictures to come!

A month away....

In one month me and the babes will be going on a disney cruise! It should be tons of fun!! I am super excited.

Valentines Day 2010

I had a wonderful Valentines day. Thanks to Derek I received these georgeous flowers! I made him a yummy dinner Sunday night and we spent time with the kids. My parents and me and the kids all dressed in red and took some fun cute pictures.

Stress and Trials

All my friends and family out there help me with your ideas on how to deal with life?! Why just as things start to go good life takes a nose dive into the deeper depths then ever before.

Super Bowl Weekend

The Grunanders all went up to Zermatt resort in Park City for Super Bowl Weekend. It was so much fun. Derek thought I deserved some Kristine time so he cought me a pumpkin facial with hot rock massage at the spa. It was amazing. It was the most relaxed I have been in years. Then we took London swimming for the first time, she did not like the pool because the water was colder than normal so Derek took her in the hot tub which was just like bath water and she loved it! She slept really good with pillows surrounding her. Derek took care Teagan at night in the main living room while me and London slept in an adjoining room. London and Sadie had a blast playing and eating grilled cheese sandwhiches together. Sadie also was little miss mommy to Teagan. She is so cute with him. She tries to burp him and hold his bottle. So funny! Then on Saturday we got ready for the day and went sledding. All the grown ups went while Prego Jana and mom watched the kids in the warm lodge. They brought London and Sadie out and we let them sled down the baby hill for a while. London loved it but got mad when we werent pushing her down the hill. She is so adventurous. She is the child that will make mommy do all sorts of crazy things. After sledding we ate at a place called Breadstix, we were the only ones there so after London and Sadie ate they threw bouncy balls all over the place. London learned that if you throw the ball it bounces so I was chasing the ball all over the place. Then we went to the room and relaxed and hung out. Sunday morning London and Sadie had a bath together. London was tired so she was little miss cranky pants. She took great naps the whole time and slept great. Me and Derek took London for a ride on a luggage cart all around the resort, she LOVED it. Then we watched the super bowl and packed up the car and went home. It was a great weekend with the Grunanders. (Pictures to come as soon as I have time)

London 15 month checkup

So here are London's stats from her 15 month checkup:
Length 29.5 inches 23%tile
Weight 18 lbs 13 ounces 3 %tile
Head Circumference 46.5 cm 68%tile

So my little London is exactly that....little. She is super skinny with a big head. That just means she will be SUPER smart. She is still going to have to face backwards in her car seat for a while longer. I think Teagan will pass her up, he is 11 pounds right now at 4 months. I am going to have a big boy and a small petite little girl. I love them!

Stop eating Sweets!!!

So I need everyones help....I have decided to not eat any desserts or candy. I am not so great at this so please if you see me reaching for candy slap me and remind me it is funner to be skinny then eat sweets :)

Well Hello Everyone!

I know it has been way to long since I have posted anything. I have been busy being a single mom that works full time. Just a little update on my life. I am happily dating an amazing man, his name is Derek. He is the most amazing man I have ever met. He makes me SOOOOO happy. London is so big. She is wanting to walk but doesnt have the confidence yet. She will be walking any day I am sure of it. She has 3 teeth now; wow do her teeth take forever to break through. She has a very strong personality. Very stubborn like her mother. My mom and dad always said I needed a little Kristine so that I could see what I put them through....can I say I feel terrible for my parents :) Just kidding London is darling. Teagan is a big boy. He is already 11 pounds. He is eating great and sleeping pretty good. He smiles the biggest smiles, it melts my heart. It is times like these that remind me the being a mother is worth all the hard and stressful times. Me, London and Teagan all had bouts of the flu. Teagan had to be hospitalized for dehydration. It was so hard to be back at the hospital. But we are home now and all healthy. My divorce is finally almost final!!! I cant wait. I am excited to be able to move on with my life and start the best years of my life with my new little family and amazing people to share memories with. I cant thank the lord enough for what he has given to me. The blessings from my trials in the past are 10 fold. I am SOOOO blessed and I know that everything happens for a reason and I might never know what those reasons are in this life but someday I will know and it will all make sense. Thanks again to all my friends and family for supporting me and the kids and helping me through a tough year. I will repay all of you in 2010. I LOVE YOU!!!

Baby Teagan

Okay I know it has been forever since I posted last. I have been super busy!!

Teagan Michael Taylor was born on September 27, 2009 at 1:40am. He weighed 3 lbs even and was 15 1/2 inches long. He was only on the ventilator for about 8 hours and then oxygen for a few more hours after that. He has been on room air ever since. He started to get sick on my breast milk (just like London) so they switched him to Alimentum formula and he has been great ever since, no more tummy issues. He has a PDA just like London; a PDA is the valve in the heart not closing. They did not discover his until 12 days of life so he could not be on medication, the only way to fix it was to do surgery or wait and see if it closes on its own. Well we are waiting to see if it closes. He is now in an open crib instead of his incubator and he weighs 4 lbs 4 ounces. He is so dang cute. I will post pictures when I have some extra time.

I wake up and go to work for a few hours and then I head to the NICU to see Teagan. After the NICU I go home and spend time with London and try to get some things done around the house. Then back up to the NICU to see my baby, then off to bed. This is why I cant seem to get my blog updated. SORRY :)

London turned 1 on October 26th. On the 24th we had a huge party for her. We ate a light lunch and then opened presents. She doesn't get how to open the presents but she loved all the toys that she received. She then got to play in her gigantic cupcake. She was not to sure about it at first but then she really started to get into it (pictures to come shortly). She is such a cutie!!

Well thanks again for everyone's support. You are all amazing and I am so glad to have you in me and my babies lives.

Babies heart rate

Last night during my hour long monitoring session my little guys heart rate dropped below 100 for a coupld of minutes. They were concerned but will just watch to see if it happens again in the days to come. Because there is no fluid he could easily be compressing the cord. So one more thing to watch and monitor. Thank goodness for all the nurses and doctors here at McKay Dee.

Latest News....

Wednesday September 23rd around 1 pm my water broke. They did some tests to make sure it was amniotic fluid and all the tests were 100 percent positive. They took me to Labor and Delivery to be monitotred over night. When I arrived to L and D they did an IV and blew my vein in my hand, ouch!! Then they finally got a vein in my arm and starting pumping me full of antibiotics because the rate of infection in the amiotic sac is extremly high now that my membranes are ruptured. They also gave me a Tributaline shot and some pills to stop the contractions. Well neither of those worked, I have was having some good contractions every 3 minutes apart. So they gave me another shot and a different pill that I have been taking all along to stop the contractions. Within an hour or two of the last medication the contractions slowed down a lot. By 9 that night they were gone. They also gave me another round of steroid shots for the babies lungs so that he doesnt have to be on a respirator as long once he is born. I had to stay over night in L and D but I did not have any more contractions all night long so my doctor said that I could come back to my room in Postpardum. I was so excited. I then went to the specialist doctor and we talked about my situation for a full hour. He is great at answering all my questions. He said that as soon as I start to contract or bleed they are going to cut the cerclage stich and let my little guy come into the world. They dont want the stitch to tear because then they have to repair the cervix after. He said removing the stich can be painful if the stitch is still in tack. That should be interesting surgery to have while having contractions :) They checked my amniotic fluid and said that I dont have any at all. He said that now my water is broke 75 percent of all women have the baby within a week. My doctor Julia said that she will most likely plan on cutting the stitch within a few days of my rupture. So this little guy should be born within a week. I was terrified on Wednesday because I still had not come to terms on having him early because I was not ready for the NICU experience and the roller coaster ride that it is. But as I was laying on the table in the specialist office I said a prayer that gave me full comfort and I am now ready to have him whenever the Lord should have him come. I know that he will not give me anything that I cannot handle. No matter what happens it is for a reason. I will keep everyone updated as to what is going on. I just wanted to thank you again for all your prayers and thoughts.

Discouraged

So the doctor came in this morning and said she doesnt think my cervix will hold up much longer. She is hoping for 32 but isnt positive about it. I hate when I hear things like that. AHHH. I am trying to stay positive and it sucks to hear your doctor say that. I just keep trying to remember that they did not think I would make it 4 weeks when I first came in here. They said they would be surprised if I made it a week in my condition. I wanted to thank everyone for your prayers, it is one thing that is keeping me strong. I just have to remind myself that I am doing what I can and that it is in the lords hands as to what happens. I have to remind myself that I will be blessed for going through this trial.

Crawling....

So London came up to visit yesterday and crawled a little bit on my bed!!!! It was so cute. I cant believe she is getting so big. She will be 11 months on Saturday. She is crawling just in time for me to get home with the baby. That should be interesting. It is so much fun to watch her grow and excel in life.

Not gaining weight....how can that be!!

So the dietician wants me to gain 1 pound a week because I am so little she needs me to get weight on for the baby. Well she came in today and said that I have only gained 2 pounds in the past month and that is not what she wants to see. It is crazy because I eat all meals and sit and do nothing. If anyone has any ideas on how to gain weight that would be great!!

Glucose test

So I failed my first flucose test, BUMMER!! So I had to do "the big test". To start the test I could not eat for 12 hours. So this morning around 8am the phlebotomist came up and drew my blood. The level had to be less than 110 and mine was 74, so three lab workers stood and stared at me while I drank the nasty orange warm drink in 5 mins. Wow that stuff is nasty!! Anyways, then they came up and drew my blood every hour for four hours. The entire test I could not eat or drink. My second blood score had to be less than 180 and it was 140, my third had to be less than 155 and it was 148, my last blood draw had to be less than 140 and it was 110. My doctor called and told me that I did not have gestational diabetes. YEAH!!! I dont need anything else adding to this pregnancy :)

September 14th-Scary Day

So on September 14th I started having contractions. They werent to bad during the day but around 8 at night I got really sick. Then all of a sudden I was having contractions every 5 mins. They were getting really stong, I did not know what a contraction felt like until today because with London it was back labor the entire time. Well now I know and it was not fun. Finally at 11 pm they called the doctor because the contractions were getting worse. The doctor said to give me two tributaline shots. They are the shots that make your heart race. By 11:45pm the contractions were gone and I was feeling good (except for the insane shaking that the shot causes). That night made me realize that I am not ready to give birth again and go through the NICU process. The past few days since I have really put my mind in the right place and prepared myself for the delivery and NICU if that is what happens.

Then....

September 15th I started contracting again about every 10 mins and then they got better and were every 20 mins. I keep wondering if it is the low weather pressure that came in. Lets just hope for good weather that does not bring this little guy.

New Goal

So my new goal is 32 and 1/2 weeks. That is when the baby is developmentally like a full term baby. But I decided that every week I make it I am going to treat myself to something (baby stuff, craft stuff, etc.) It is nice to look forward to something, I think it helps the time go by faster. (Of course it will be on my bed rest budget..haha I guess I will have to spend my $3 wisely)

Party Day!!

YEAH!! Today the social workers here at McKay Dee are throwing me a pizza party because I have made it to 28 weeks. I love all the people here, they are so sweet.

28 Weeks today :)

YEAH!! I made it to 28 weeks. I have been in the hospital for about 4 weeks now. I have had a few scares with contractions and bleeding but that is normal in my situation I think. I would love to make it as far along as possible but I know that it is in the lords hands. He will always watch over me and this baby boy. Sometimes it is hard to keep that mind set but my support system is amazing to keep my head in the right place.

I went to the specialist this morning..thought I did not have an appointment until the 17th but they came and got me so I went. Anyways, they measured the baby and the fluid. I have 11 ounces i think of fluid which is good for this time in pregnancy and they measured my little guys abdomen and thigh (his head is way to low to measure) to see how big he is.....he is about 2 pounds 4 ounces!! He is getting bigger every single day.

Thanks again to my amazing friends and family that keep me in your prayers. I know that it is helping me get through this. I love you guys!!

I told you :)

So I told you I would post pictures. Well I did, many of you know how much I LOVE pictures and I think this proves it. Have fun viewing how much fun me and London had this summer!!

London and Me

I love photos :)

More fun...

Summer Fun

Update...

Okay so things are going good. Last night I had braxton hicks contractions that woke me up from my Ambien induced comma, they lasted all night long. As soon as I woke up they went away. The doctor said it is really normal to have them and to track.

I love all my friends and family for coming up and visiting me. You guys are my life savers. I do have to say though my favorite visitor is a beautiful little girl, she is the love of my life. You guessed....its London!!! When I know she is coming up I cant stop looking at the clock. Mom called yesterday as the left and said they were on their way and it felt like hours before she got here, even though I am sure it was only 20 mins or so.

I am going to post a bunch of pictures as soon as I can. I have to rely on my amazing family to get a lot of things done for me and getting pics on a disc is one the list of things to do.

Handicap chances

When the doctor came in this morning he said that when I was admitted to the hospital at 24 weeks the chances of my baby being handicapped was 80%. Once I reach 28 weeks the chance goes down to 5%. If I make it to 32 weeks they consider that full term as far as chances of handicap (which is basically 0%). So keep me and the baby in your prayers that we will make it to 28 weeks at least. Right now I am 26 weeks and 3 days.

Just another day....

Today is another day in the hospital. The baby is doing good; super active. He hates to be monitored. Whenever they put the monitor on he kicks them and moves all over the place. I have to hold the paddle and push it on my belly to keep his heart beat on the monitor. He is already stubborn. Him and London take after their mother :) He is still really, really low and will be for the rest of the pregnancy. I am 26 weeks and 2 days today. I need to get to at least 28 weeks because that is when the critical stage for his development is over. At 28 weeks his brain is all developed. London is doing good with Grandma and Grandpa, getting spoiled rotten :) London loves her grandparents. I love my mom and dad for taking care of London and bringing her up here to see me. I love seeing the smile on her face when she walks in the door. It is amazing how much love I have for my babies. I feel that they are a piece of my heart living outside of my body. It is such an amazing feeling.

This is a quote that a lady in the hospital research sent me:
"I know that God will not give me anything that I cant handle. I just wish he did not trust me so much."
I really like this because it puts my head in the right spot. I know that Heavenly Father is by my side through this entire process and that I am able to handle it otherwise he would not let me go through this. I just hae to keep thinking that the blessings that i am going to receive from these trials are going to be amazing. I know that my sweet baby is being taken care of in Heaven by my grandma and grandpa Sampson. They are taking care of him until he is ready to come to earth and live with me and London. I am so thankful that heavenly father trusts me with my little angels. I am so happy to be a mother.

Thanks again to all my friends and family who are there to support me on a daily basis. Thanks for getting me through the hard times and of course for being there for me through the good.

Fun Fun Fun

So much fun

YEAH

Pictures

Fun Pictures!

I'm Back!!

Sorry it has been so long since I posted anything. Work has been super crazy and then when I get home from work all I want to do is be with London. She is growing up so fast. She is hopefully going to crawl soon. She tries but cant quite get the hang of it yet. Me and the baby are doing good. We are in the hospital on bed rest until he is born because my cervix is super short again even with the cerclage so they are watching me really close. I am so thankful for all my family and friends and the support you have given me and my little family through everything. I also dont know what I would do if I did not have the church in my life. Knowing that me and my babies are being blessed and watched over every second of every day by the lord is so comforting to me. I have received so many blessings through my trials. I know that that heavenly father will not give me any trials that I cannot handle. I know that me and my babies will receive 10 times the blessings for every trial we go through. I should be able to update this more now that I have the extra time :)