September 28th 2010

Okay so posting everyday was interupted by a sick family. So basically I have done nothing but take care of a sick hushand and sick kids. Sounds fun huh!! Not so much....

September 27th 2010

One year ago today was a huge day in my life. It was 3am and I woke up with extreme pain. (mind you I was already in the hospital for the past 6 weeks on bed rest). So I called the nurses and let them know. They came down and hooked me up to a baby monitor to see how my baby was doing. They noticed that I was in labor so they gave me two rounds of meds to stop it and 2 shots to stop it. After that did not work and my contractions were super close they rushed me to Labor and delivery. LItterally I was squeezing the arm off of the nurse because the pain was so intense. They grabbed the machine and my bed and ran down the hall. Luckily it was so early in the morning no one was in the hall because we would have taken them out. I called Eric and Derek. As soon as Eric got my call he was to call the phone tree and get everyone to the hospital and notified that I was having the baby. Derek drove so fast he got there in record time. He said that he had a feeling something was going to happen that night so he went home from work and just watched tv until he got my call. My mother also said she had laid her clothes out perfectly with socks and everything (which she never does) and laid in bed without falling asleep. They all knew something was going to happen. Well they got to the hospital and we waited for the doctors instuctions. The doctor told the nurse to go ahead and check me (this was the first time they had ever checked me because if they did it could cause labor if I wasnt already in labor) well needless to say I was a 10 and she felt the babys head. They said you have 1 second to tell us if you want the epidural, well i decided not to becuase I thought this cant be to bad if the head is already there. So they started to wheel me into the operating room. I wanted mom and Heather to be there but they said I could only have one person so I chose Heather because I knew she would never be able to have a baby and wanted her to experience it. Before they got me in the room I started screaming for Derek (I dont konw why) but I needed him so bad at that momment. So they went and got him. I told him that I could not do this and I was scared. He said its going to be great and that I would be fine. Then they made him leave because they had to get me in the room. Well as soon as they got me in there everyone was running around like crazy, they had the NICU staff in the other room waiting for the baby to be born. My doctor told me to tell her when I was having a contraction; i was suppossed to know this because I was having natural child birth...little did they remember I had several things telling my body not to be in labor (pills and shots galore) so  I could not tell when I was suppossed to push. The doctor then told me when to push and holy cow was that painful. I did not think I could do it. It felt like I was pushing forever and then there he was Tiny and amazing. Just thinking about him makes me want to cry. No noise from him, he was just laying there, the doctor hurried and cut his cord and they rushed him away to the NICU nurses standing by. Well my sack was in shreds again so they had to try to get that taken care of and that sucked. Getting a D and C with no pain killers, the doctor said you have to have an epideral because this is really bad. So even though I had natural child birth I ended up with an epidural anyways. When the anestetiologst gave me the epidural it sent shocks down my left leg. It was not fun. Well everything was over and they wheeled me and my mom into see Teagan. He was wide awake and on the ventilator. He looked so amazing that is when I knew that he had changed my life in a way that no one else could. He was my little man that would get me through everything that I needed to, he was the one that could survive anything and would prove to me that I can to. I was so happy to see that Hevenly Father blessed me with yet another miracle. Teagan I love you and have since I found out that you were joining our little family. You are and always will be my main man, my little guy, my son. I love you. Happy Birthday!!!!

September 26th 2010

Today was not the best day for me. I went to church alone with Teagan and he had diareah and puked all over me so I stayed just long enough to take the sacrament then we left. When I got home I was not feeling great so me and Teagan took a nap. When I got up we went and cut Janas hair. She is growing it out and she had a mullet going on so we had to fix that. Hope you like it Jana :) Then we stayed to eat dinner. We chatted a bit and I just kinda felt like crap. So we went home. Then Derek started feeling really sick so he went to sleep while I hung out with the kids. Not a great day! Lets hope it gets better.

September 25th 2010

Today I went with my mom, sister, and Amy Rudolph to the "What a women wants" expo. We got there at 9 and stayed until 2. There were so many booths filled with super cute and fun things. I bought some cute stuff (shirt, hot tools holder, amazing diaper bag). It was a blast!! Mom had to get back for the womens broadcast for church so they had to hurry home so we could not do lunch. I really miss being so close to my family. I love you guys!! Derek stayed home with Teagan and mowed the lawn and started to put the tramp together. I went shopping and bought some pants to fit my new body (the one I am embracing until I loose 20 pounds). They were super cheap and not cute so I hope it motivates me to loose the weight even faster. I have a plan so we will see if it works. If so I will tell everyone my litte secret :)

September 24th 2010

Today was a fun day. Derek and I both had the day off so we ran some errands, played with the kids, watched TV, and best of all we went to the Training Table for dinner and the circus! We were in the third row. London and Teagan were inthralled by all the lights and action. They got a little restless because they were both really tired. It was a lot of fun!!

September 23rd 2010

Happy Birthday Pete!! Today was Petes birthday so we went to dinner at Texas Roadhouse and then went back to Nana and Papas to open presents. It was a fun day!

September 22nd 2010

Last night we went to Nana and Papas house and ate pancakes for dinner. Then me and Jana went shopping for Papas birthday. Derek and the kids played with Sadie and had a blast. London is still scared of Brents cast. She goes and hides in the corner when she sees him and then when he leaves the room she yells bye bye. Then on the way home we told London she could either go home and go to sleep or take a bath and her eyes lit up and she kept yelling bath. She loves bath time. She will lay down and pretend to swim. She loves to dump water on Teagans head. They used to love splashing each other but me and Derek stopped that because we were soaking at the end of the bath as well. London loves to put lotion on (that is the only way she will get out of the bath). Teagan is starting to be so active it is hard to dress him and get him ready for bed. He is so funny. He gets easily distracted. Then after bath is was off to bed. London is an angel when it is bed time. She has her chocolate milk and sometimes a cookie (vanilla wafer) then I lay her on her bed with minnie (mimi) and her blanket, tuck her in and say "time for kisses" when I say that she goes MMMWHA! and I give her a big mommy kiss. Then turn off the light and say nigh night. She goes to sleep no issues! We are so lucky that she doesnt fight it. Teagan is good as well. He will eat his entire bowl of rice ceareal and baby food and then an 8 ounce bottle all snuggled up in a blanket (he still likes to be swaddled for bedtime), he will fall asleep while drinking and then we just put him in the crib. But if we dont feed him enough he will wake up and let us know. He is a big boy and needs a lot of food. I love his little rolls.

September 21st 2010

So I went and saw Easy A last night. It was so funny and sad all at the same time. It made me realize that I need to stand up for and appreciate who I am and not worry what people think about me. I am who I am.

September 20th 2010

When I got home from work my amazing husband was cleaning out the garage. Since we moved in we have only been able to park one car in the driveway but our goal was to park both cars before the weather got cold. He did an amazing job. It looks so great! We are able to fit both cars!! YEAH!!! It was a night of cleaning and playing with the kids. London loves to run and jump in the ball pit that Teagan got for his birthday. She thinks it is hilarious and laughs so hard. I love my little girl. Teagan is still army crawling because he knows that gets him around faster then crawling. Also he has 3 teeth on top and 2 on bottom with at least 2 more coming through on top. His teeth are popping in like crazy.

The what IF'S...

If I had never became a mother...


I wouldn't have to wonder "Is that chocolate or is that poop?"



If I had never became a mother...

I would never have to use the bathroom or shower with the door open



If I had never became a mother...

I wouldn't step on legos with every step, causing me to scream out in pain



If I had never became a mother...

I wouldn't have gained this spare tire that I carry around the space where my tummy used to be.



If I had never became a mother...

I wouldn't have to buy Handi Snacks and Goldfish crackers by the grouse



If I had never became a mother...

I wouldn't have had the pleasure of pulling the back on someones pants open to see if they pooped.



If I had never became a mother...

I wouldn't have to buy an entire new wardrobe for them while I, myself, make do with one good pair of jeans and one cardigan.



If I had never became a mother...

I wouldn't have sat up until the wee hours of the morning lulling a crying baby to sleep when all I wanted to do was cry myself.



If I had never became a mother...

I would never have eaten so many cold meals in my life.



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If I had never became a mother...

I wouldn't get to see young minds grow and discover the beauty of the earth



If I had never became a mother...

I wouldn't have two sweet little warm bodies who find no greater joy than crawling into bed with their Mama for a good morning snuggle.



If I had never became a mother...

I would never had had the chance to nourish another human being with my own



If I had never became a mother...

I would never know how proud I could feel when someone does something that seems so small.



If I had never became a mother...

I never would have had another beating heart lay so close to my very own, literally.

September 19th 2010

Tonight we ate dinner at nana and papa's house. We had cupcakes for dessert and this what happened:

Needless to say London loved it! She got so mad when I tried to halp her eat it.

September 18th 2010

Today we celebreated Teagans first birthday!!! We had a barnyard theme (pics to come). It was a lot of fun. Tons of family came to our house and we had the party in the back yard. Teagan ate 3 full cupcakes WOW!! He dove right in without hesitation. Of course he is not used to the sugar overload so he got a little spitty that evening. He got tons and tons of awesome gifts! (thanks again to our amazing families). We are so thankful to have Teagan here and healthy. We love you big guy!

September 17th 2010

So this morning me and the kids went to my moms house so I could cut hair. When we pulled into the driveway London started screaming because she was so excited to be there. She was running around and playing all day. She loved playing with all the toys and remembering where everything was.

We left Roy and headed to the Utah State Fair! WOW that was a blast. The kids rode on the ponies (pics to come), London rode on a bunch of rides and loved them . I thought she would be scared but she screamed and laughed really hard. My little angel is not scared of anything. We ate tons of food (including London, she ate more then ever). We shopped and just had a blast. We got pictures with seals. I cant beleive how much fun it was.

September 16th 2010

 London decided to play mommy today! She walked around the kitchen with one of my high heels on. It was so cute. It made a clunking noise throughout the entire kitchen. It was so cute. Then Teagan decided to help dad put the laundry away. They also went for a ride around the house in a plastic container. SO CUTE!!!

September 15th 2010

So the minute I got home last night we left to run errands. We first went to Toys R Us to finish buying Teagan his birthday presents. We then went to Hires for dinner. London loved the booster seat, as soon as dinner was over and we were getting ready to leave she carried the booster seat to the reigster and sat on it in line to pay. It was so stinking cute. She was mad that we had to leave it at the restraunt. She of course at Ranch dressing with a fry or two. That girl doesnt eat. Teagan on the other hand had eaten before we left the house but whined the entire time we ate because he felt that he needed some. So we gave him some fries and he devoured them. Then it was off to Walmart. Holy cow two carts full of stuff for the party (and I still forgot some things). We got home and put the kids to bed then relaxed for a bit and then off to bed.

September 14th 2010

Tuesdays are always hard for me. London goes with Mark for a few hours. I try to prepare her and let her know that she is going with him but no fail when she sees his car she cries so hard. It breaks me and Dereks heart. We feel helpless and dont know what to do. She was gripping on my shirt so tight Derek could not take her for the exchange. My heart aches to see my baby like that.

Well after that terrible moment my sweet friends took me to see The Switch. It was one of the best movies. I laughed and cried. I love movies that can take your emotions up and down and grab your attention. On my way home from the movie I broke down and cried so hard. I dont usually have time to myself and at that moment it hit me how bad I feel for my London. I just hope and pray that she will be a stronger girl from all of this and that she will go towards the Lord for help and comfort.

Oh yeah, while I was gone my AMAZING husband had done the laundry, played with Teagan, hung pictures, cleaned the entire basement, sorted through boxes, got London back and comforted her and made sure she had her chocolate milk. Have I said that Derek is the most amazing dad to the babies ever!!!

I am posting daily; I promise

My new goal is to post daily (minus weekends) even if I dont get pictures.

September 13th 2010
When I got home from work we ate some yummy food (well everyone ate but London, all she ate was the ketchup that she had to dip her fries in). She is so funny. She hardly eats and that is why she is so skinny. She loves to snack on treats though. Teagan on the other hand is already eating us out of house and home. He is such a pig. We love it!! Then we watched Elmo, took baths, drank chocolate milk and went to sleep. London loves to have her chocolate milk before bed. She cant go to sleep without it.

FUN

I hope you enjoy the pictures. We had so much fun this past summer. The pictures are just the pics from May. I need to get a computer where I can update my blog from my camera so that you dont have to wait to see how much fun we have :) London discovered the side stairs in the pictures but could not figure out how to get back down so I had to help her down each time she climbed up. There are pictures of Derek and Dad's birthday. Sweet Derek turned 30 (old man) and yes I kept dating him. I know that I said I was going to dump him on May 1st at 9:30pm because I did not want to date an old man, but I decided that I kinda loved the guy so I kept dating him. Since May we have done tons of stuff. Me, London, Teagan, Heather, Jayden and Mom went on dates every Friday during the summer to fun destinations. We had a blast all summer long spending quality time with each other. I will post more pics as Derek burns them to CD.

And here they are.....FINALLY!!